Gone but never forgotten

This is probably my 5Th attempt to sit down and post since Glenna died.At least once was because I had the wrong password, the other times I just sat and stared at the computer then gave up.I miss her terribly-we all do! So that said, there are a few other important things I feel I needed to talk about. First would be Dec. 4Th the day I drove my truck across two double yellow lines and through a utility pole and then coming to a halt up against a tree on the drivers side door.None of it can I recall.As a matter of fact I was on my way to Home Depot having just been at the Barnstable dump.Can't recall being at the dump but when I went the next day to clean out my truck I was a bit dismayed to not find the trash still in the back.I will confess I have had a few self induced memory blackouts in my life but nothing to equal this.I just don't think the beer at lunch an hour before was the culprit.OK, so what happened?Well I can only explain in one word GLENNA.When I came out of my nap to find myself with both dogs shaking in my lap I exited the truck with wires sparking so bad that a tree across the street was on fire,Police and rescue,fire,ambulances all calling to me if I was alright.I was escorted into an ambulance checked out by the paramedics who asked me over and over;are you sure you are alright? As I stood waiting for Colleen to pick me and the dogs up,numerous people came over to me in disbelief that I wasn't dead or injured at all.A lot of people very easily have just said it was a miracle.I wish it was that easy for me.I guess if I really believed in miracles Glenna would still be here and none of the above would have happened.I'm not and never have been very religious.It goes back to being 13 and having been tossed out of communion for upsetting my Sunday school teacher by asking to many questions.I have always needed solid scientific answers .Seeing is believing works for me.So,to try and keep this short, seeing was believing!I should be dead or badly injured.I still don't consider myself religious but I now no for sure that there is more than the eye can see.With all my heart I believe that Glenna played a part in me not being harmed and I know I wouldn't put it past her in staging the whole thing just to teach me to believe in more the way she did.How is it possible that a child to me could teach me something? Very possible!
I hope what Glenna taught me will bring some comfort to those who are facing a similar battle for life;there is so much more than the life we see and no need to fear whats ahead for us all.
She refused to let fear take hold of her and now I understand why!
Stay strong and thank you Glenna.
Capt. Bob